Long lost blog

Have not update my blog for almost 6 months... Not that I've nothing to share, just that I am too lazy to pen it down. But then I realize I have no one to talk to at this wee hour... I often use my blog as a platform to view other blogger's blog. Soon this has become an everyday practice especially when I can't sleep during most of the night. Me, my life has changed quite a fair bit. It was like a dream, more like a nightmare. Although I've walked out of it, still cant comprehend how things ended abruptly even before anything has barely begin. I am really really glad that I managed to hold myself back to prevent whatever that shouldn't happen, however I would still appreciate if someone will tell me the answer someday. And if not for her, I don't know how I can't walk out of the awkward situation then. She accompanied me almost every single day during that period of time. She hear me cry be if for him or for him, she talks to me, she goes clubbing with me hoping the blasting music and alcohol will numb me, she try to tell me jokes. She cook me dinner, she chases drama with me. She asked me to stay over at her place to accompany her but I know it's otherwise. She is my savior, thank you Joanne... And why do I keep attracting the wrong people? Men who are married or attached, would you just leave me alone? I am really really not interested in entangled relationship especially after experiencing a real bad one before. I know somehow something is wrong with me. Even 'normal' men asking me out, I would rather spend the day playing poker, mj or a simple dinner with a group/my girlfriend rather than facing another person whom I barely know. I hope it's not a phobia. Although sometimes it can be quite disheartening to see all ur friends appear as happy couple, I keep reminding myself to rather be alone than be with the wrong one. Maybe I should have long focus my attention in work and family instead of all this 乱七八糟 and 无聊的事... 天啊！晚安...(~_~;) - From Pig's iPad